December 25, 2007

Christmas Gender Games



I was obligated to go with my family to church on Christmas Eve. My mom didn't like my appearance, so I let her dress me and put makeup on me, in exchange for letting me video tape it. Strange enough, she liked my brothers old sports coat on me. Perhaps there is some progress. I'm having fun playing these gender games with her!!

December 24, 2007

Holiday Intro/Wig at Airport

A request from my mother and grandma every time I visit them is come back with longer hair. This time I greeted my mother with a wig and caught it on camera! Also, this is the first video I edited in the Sanyo Xacti, excuse the learning curve. (i didn't bring editing equipment) Happy Holidays everyone.

December 21, 2007

The Morning After



I was reviewing Tor's videos from Naked54 and got fixated on these couple of frames... mixed them together with his great commentary and thus makes the short movie "The Morning After".

December 19, 2007

Naked54 Holiday Party

Naked54 rocked the house. The porn stars, co-workers and friends, oh my!

December 13, 2007

Clips from The Charlie Monster Horse Show!!!

I went to go see my friends Dean Disaster and Dam Dyke perform at The Charlie Moster Horse Show. A bunch of performers who usually get it on at The Cinch joined up with The Monster Show at Harvy's and put on one hell of an event!

December 10, 2007

Aima with DJ Zita at MILK

Aima does it again! Very glad I got the chance to see this woman perform again. She is HOT HOT HOT! The crowd ate her up last Friday at Milk in San Francisco where she performed with DJ Zita. I am officially a fan!

December 5, 2007

Aima with JazzMafia



Wow! What a hot performance. Aima rocked the mic with JazzMafia at Bruno's in San Francisco last night. It was hard to keep the camera still -- I couldn't help but dance!

December 3, 2007

The Flaming Lotus Girls

Last week, I tagged along with Tristan to the set up for the Flaming Lotus Girls benefit art show. I was amazed by the photos of huge fire breathing metal sculptures. I can't wait to see them in action!

December 1, 2007

Disrespecting privacy vs. valuing openness


I spend a lot of time online. I'm online at work. I come home and get online for at least an hour, usually more. I'm online for at least some portion of the weekend.

What do I do online? Research whatever I am interested in. Keep in touch with friends. Find out about local events. Watch videos of people beat boxing while playing the flute. Social experiments like Crazy Blind Dates (thanks to Sarah's blog postings). Collect domain names. Also, I've just gotten into videoblogging and am procrastinating working on a web page for KinkyCuisine.

Googling my name, I knew I already had an online presence through school and video involvement. I knew people could easily find me on social networking sites. I knew that privacy was limited on the internet but did not know to what extent until I met Tristan.

Tristan took a photo of me at Folsom. I found it on Flickr and contacted him about it. We ended up chatting on GTalk and still do. I knew I had personal information on the web but when he emailed me a picture of my house, my whole perspective changed.

Honestly, thanks to the support of this panic stricken society and my tendencies to worst-case-scenarioize, I was a little freaked out by a man I didn't know researching me on the internet and finding out my address. Now I've gotten to know him better and trust he has no ill intent. He really just helped me realize that privacy is an illusion.

I was already having problems with social networking sites like MySpace. It seemed that people feel entitled to intimacy with me just because they had access to my profile. Sitting on my friend list for 2 years on myspace and reading my blog or bulletins cannot achieve the same kind of intimacy as having a conversation with me (online or off).

I'm an exhibitionist and I like to expose my vulnerabilities because it makes me feel stronger, in control. Thats why its hard for me to stay in the closet about many things. I'd say I'm still in the closet about some things to some people, but I realize that my closets have glass doors, thanks to the internet.

The internet holds a representation of you, why not contribute to that?

My new exploration in transcending the illusion of privacy: Twitter.
Twitter me at http://twitter.com/iamfivestar